Full-Blown Pain: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden pain erupted behind my one eye. Then came quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like several triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual treatments for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Leslie Osborne
Leslie Osborne

A lifelong retro gaming collector and historian with expertise in 8-bit and 16-bit era preservation and restoration.